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Rh "Of course," she said, "that's quite inevitable."

"Quite," laughed Ursula. "He is several generations of youngness at one go. They hate him for it. He takes them all by the scruff of the neck, and fairly flings them along. He'll have to die soon, when he's made every possible improvement, and there will be nothing more to improve. — He's got go, anyhow."

"Certainly, he's got go," said Gudrun. "In fact, I've never seen a man that showed signs of so much. The unfortunate thing is, where does his go go to, what becomes of it?"

"Oh I know," said Ursula. "It goes in applying the latest appliances!"

"Exactly," said Gudrun.

"You know he shot his brother?" said Ursula.

"Shot his brother?" cried Gudrun, frowning as if in disapprobation.

"Didn't you know? Oh yes! — I thought you knew. He and his brother were playing together with a gun. He told his brother to look down the gun, and it was loaded, and blew the top of his head off. — Isn't it a horrible story?"

"How fearful!" cried Gudrun. "But it is long ago?"

"Oh yes, they were quite boys," said Ursula. "I think it is one of the most horrible stories I know."

"And he, of course, did not know that the gun was loaded?"

"Yes. You see, it was an old thing that had been lying in the stable for years. Nobody dreamed it would ever go off, and of course, no one imagined it was loaded. But isn't it dreadful, that it should happen?"

"Frightful!" cried Gudrun. "And isn't it horrible too, to think of such a thing happening to one, when one was a child, and having to carry the responsibility of it all through one's life. Imagine it, two boys playing together — then this comes upon them, for no reason whatever — out of the air. Ursula, it's very frightening! Oh, it's one of the things I can't bear. Murder, that is thinkable, because there's will behind it. But a thing like that to happen to one — "

"Perhaps there was an unconscious will behind it," said Ursula. "This playing at killing has some primitive desire for killing in it, don't you think?"