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 never for a second had thought could possibly happen to me.'"" [sic]

After a moment's silence Heggen said:

"Rossetti says—and you know he is a much better poet than painter:

Jenny said nothing—and Gunnar repeated: "That the same goal is still on the same track."

"Do you think it is easy to find the track to the goal again?" asked Jenny.

"No, but ought one not to try?" he said, almost in a childish way.

"But what goal did I have at all?" she said, with sudden vehemence. "I wanted to live in such a way that I need never be ashamed of myself either as a woman or as an artist. Never to do a thing I did not think right myself. I wanted to be upright, firm, and good, and never to have any one else's sorrow on my conscience. And what was the origin of the wrong—the cause of it all? It was that I yearned for love without there being any particular man whose love I wanted. Was there anything strange in it, or that I wanted to believe that Helge, when he came, was the one I had been longing for