Page:The poems of Richard Watson Gilder, Gilder, 1908.djvu/399

Rh And, haply, somewhat morbid in this matter.

'T would come, I fear, not easy to deceive

Even death-beds, for their good, that men, indeed,

Might, as they say, "die happy." (Not that I

Have never eased, by little lies that helped,—

Being gray with years,—to smooth a neighbor's path,

Or even mine own.) And when I've read brave tales

Wherein the hero like a hero lied,

And saved the other hero from some shame,

Or loss, or ill that seemed itself a lie,

Such tragi-comedies, I ve thought, mayhap

Argued a sophist mind in them who wrote.

Once reading such a pretty history

The thought came on me with a sickening stroke:

But what of all the martyrs who died singing,

Smiling and singing in the face of pain,

Of tortured, useless death; seeing just beyond

The flame, the scorch, the shudder—sudden joy;

Joy so intense it threw a splendor back

Into the midst of unfelt agonies!

And what of those, the unknown martyrdoms,

The myriads of faithful, humble souls

Who horribly suffered through long, faithful lives,

Seeing the peace of God beyond the strife!

What of all these if there be no awakening?

If He permitted the Colossal Lie

As opiate for the agony of life—

Who were the sophist then?"

But a voice spake

And said: "Your argument requires a God

All powerful, all present, and all wise,

Who could prevent false notions of Himself

And His designs to fasten on men's minds.

If such a God exists, this is most sure—