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 however, be indifferent to what I know must be the feeling's of all my family relations. The affectionate attention I have received from you all, has not been thrown away. Believe me, my dear Alfred, I shall never cease to grieve for the unavoidable separation which my present pursuit entails upon me. But affection always descends. I believe the child never loves the parent as the parent does the child. What, then, must be the feelings of my dear father and mother? I know that I have always felt the warmest feelings towards them, and, although I spared them the pain of a formal separation, I am sure they must have suffered much since on my account. The anxiety I am occasioning my family is the only drawback I feel to the gladness my enthusiasm for the cause I have undertaken creates. However, I comfort myself with the idea that I may be again installed among you, in the service of Spain, in my native country or in France, after the Liberal Government is settled&hellip;

"P.S. Tarbes, September 30th.—I finish my letter from this place, whence I go immediately into Spain. I shall probably precede Colonel Gurrea to some important place with despatches, but, if not, I shall perform the same service for Valdes. I may now be considered a military man, and you would think so if you saw my equipage. I have a good horse, and am clad in a cocked hat, with a tri-coloured plume of leathers, laced surtout, and jack-boots!&hellip;

"I enclose the song the Spaniards will sing in going into battle.

"Your affectionate brother,&emsp;&emsp;

We now return to the diary to follow up the thread of the narrative:—

"The business which led us to Lyons, namely, the formation of a committee of Frenchmen to assist the