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 Jan. 5, Moscow.

There is still nothing good to write about my- self. I feel no need of working and the devil does not leave me. Have been ill for about 6 days.

Began to reread Resurrection and reached up to his decision to marry and threw it away with disgust. It is all untrue, invented, weak. It is hard to repair a spoiled thing. In order to re- pair it, there is necessary: i) alternately to describe his feeling and life, and hers, 168 and 2) sympathetically and seriously hers, and critically and with a smile, his. I shall hardly finish it. It is all very spoilt.

Yesterday I read Arkhangelsky's 16T article " Whom to Serve " and was very delighted.

Have finished the notebook. And here I am writing from it:

1 ) My article on ... must be written for the people . ..

2) (For The Notes of a Madman or for The Drama). Despair because of madness and wretchedness of life. Salvation from this despair in the recognition of God and one's filial- ity to Him. The recognition of filiality is the

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