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Rh tore that I had made a great achievement when the man who trained my uncle's horses invited me to share his Christmas dinner which we roasted in front of his harness-room fire; and now I took an almost equal pride in an evening spent with some small organizer into whose spittoon I secretly poured my third glass of whiskey. I constantly hoped for some gain, in self-possession, in rapidity of decision, in capacity for disguise, and am at this moment I dare say no different for it all, having but burgeoned and withered like a tree.

When Maud Gonne returned she became our directing mind both in England and in Ireland, and it was mainly at her bidding that our movement became a protest against the dissensions, the lack of dignity, of the Parnellite and Anti-Parnellite parties, who had fought one another for seven or eight years, till busy men passed them by as they did those performing cats that in my childhood I used to see boxing one another on a table outside Charing Cross station. Both parliamentary parties seeing that all young Ireland, and a good part of old, were in the movement, tried to join us, the Anti-Parnellite without abandoning its separate identity. They were admitted I think, but upon what terms I do not remember. I and two or three others had to meet Michael Davitt, and a member of Parliament called F. X. O'Brien to talk out the question of separate identity, and I remember nothing of what passed but the manner and image of Michael Davitt. He seemed hardly more unfitted for such negotiation, perhaps even for any possible present politics, than I myself, and I watched him with sympathy. One knows by the way a man sits in his chair if he have emotional intensity, and Davitt's suggested to me a writer, a painter, and artist of some kind, rather than a man of action. Then too, F. X. O'Brien did not care whether he used a good or a bad argument, whether he seemed a fool or a clever man, so that he carried his point, but if he used a bad argument Davitt would bring our thought back to it though he had to wait several minutes and restate it. One felt that he had lived always with small, unimaginative men whom he despised; and that, perhaps through some lack of early education, perhaps because nine years' imprisonment at the most plastic period of his life had jarred or broken his contact with reality, he had failed, except during the first months of the Land League, to dominate those men. He told me that if the split in the Irish Party had not come he would have carried the Land League in the Highlands, and recovered for Ireland as much of Scotland as was still Gaelic in blood or