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 For he is not envious, but liberal with his goods, relying on his great riches.

160. "I am not Jesus, but a servant of Jesus. I am not Christ, but a servant of Christ. I am not the Son of God, but I pray to be deemed worthy of him. Abide in the faith in Jesus Christ! Wait for the hope of the Son of God! Hesitate not in times of need, and doubt not when you see that I am reviled, imprisoned and die. For in this body I only do what is bidden me by the Lord. For if I wished not to die, you know that I can do it. But this death is no death, but deliverance and loosening from the body. And I will joyfully expect it that I may go and receive the Beautiful and Merciful. For I have become weary of the service which I did to him, and by that which I executed by his grace, and now he will not leave me. You, however, see to it that he comes not into you which enters in and brings doubts to the thoughts. For he is mightier whom you have received. Wait for his coming, that he may come and receive you. For after your departure you shall see him."

161. Having finished this discourse, he entered into the dark house, and said, "My Saviour, who hast endured much for our sake, let these doors be as they were and their seals unbroken!" And he left the women and went to be locked up. And they grieved and wept, knowing that King Misdai would destroy him.

162. And Judas went and found the jailers fighting, and saying, "What wrong have we done