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 infinite number of other roots of sin remain in me.

At times he trusted that his pride in his own works was subdued and would no more trouble him, but again and again he had to learn his dependence for this, as for all other grace, on the constant protection of the Lord.

"April 10 and 11. . . . When awake I began thinking whether all this was not mere fantasy, and I then noticed that my faith was vacillating. I therefore pressed my hands together and prayed that I might be strengthened in faith, which also took place immediately. Again when thoughts occurred to me about being worthier than others, I prayed in like manner, whereupon these thoughts at once vanished; if therefore our Lord in the least withdraw His hand from any one, he is out of the true path, and also out of faith, as has been manifestly the case with me.

"I slept this night about eleven hours and during the whole of the morning was in my usual state of internal gladness, which was nevertheless attended with a pang: this I thought arose from the power of the spirit and my own unworthiness. At last with God's help I came into these thoughts