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I serve for nothing a queer kind of love, maybe  I am not ordinary! our child what could she mean by that? child of us three? on the surface, that’s insane but I felt when she said it there was something in it  she has strange devious intuitions that tap the hidden currents of life  dark intermingling currents that become the one stream of desire  I feel, with regard to Nina, my life queerly identified with Sam’s and Darrell’s  her child is the child of our three loves for her  I would like to believe that  I would like to be her husband in a sense  and the father of a child, after my fashion  I could forgive her everything  permit everything

[Determinedly]

And I do forgive! and I will not meddle hereafter more than is necessary to guard her happiness, and Sam’s and our baby’s as for Darrell, I am no longer jealous of him  she is only using his love for her own happiness  he can never take her away from me!

[More and more strangely triumphant]

My three men! I feel their desires converge in me! to form one complete beautiful male desire which I absorb and am whole  they dissolve in me, their life is my life  I am pregnant with the three! husband! lover! father! and the fourth man! little man! little Gordon! he is mine too! that makes it perfect!

[With an extravagant suppressed exultance]

Why, I should be the proudest woman on earth! I should be the happiest woman in the world!