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''resignation resentful of itself. He is dressed immaculately in dark tweed''.

[Thinking]

I wonder if there’s a draft in the baby’s room? maybe I’d better close the window? oh, I guess it’s all right he needs lots of fresh air  little Gordon  he does remind me of Gordon  something in his eyes  my romantic imagination? Ned said that why hasn’t Ned ever written? it’s better he hasn’t how he made me suffer ! but I forgive him he gave me my baby  the baby certainly doesn’t look like him  everyone says he looks like Sam  how absurd! but Sam makes a wonderful father he’s become a new man in the past year  and I’ve helped him  he asks me about everything  I have a genuine respect for him now  I can give myself without repulsion  I am making him happy  I’ve written his mother I’m making him happy  I was proud to be able to write her that  how queerly things work out! all for the best and I don’t feel wicked  I feel good

[She smiles strangely]

[Thinking]

What a change! the last time I was here the air was poisoned Darrell  I was sure he was her lover  but I was in a morbid state  why did Darrell run away? Nina could have got Sam to divorce her if she really loved Darrell then it’s evident she couldn’t have loved him  and she was going to have