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 ment he  persevere,  sooner  or  later,  and  perhaps  when least expected,  his  consolation  is  sure  to  come. Peter and his  fellow-fishermen  doubtless  deemed  it  madness after  their  unsuccessful  night  to  look  for  a  rich haul in  the  glare  of  the  morning  sun,  and  hence their amazement  when,  at  Jesus's  word,  they  let down the  nets  and  took  that  wondrous  draught. They were  completely  carried  away  by  a  sudden  revulsion of  feeling. It was  a  double  revelation — of their  unworthiness,  and  of  Christ's  infinite  goodness, and  Peter  voiced  the  sentiment  of  all  when  he cried  in  the  spirit  of  the  centurion:  "  Lord,  I  am  not worthy;  depart  from  me,  O  Lord,  for  I  am  a  sinful man." There is  no  priest  who  has  not  at  times  experienced all  of  that. He preached  perhaps,  and  bid right eloquently  for  a  soul  or  souls,  and  because Christ's promise  of  success  was  not  fulfilled  as promptly  and  as  abundantly  as  in  the  case  of  Peter's first  discourse,  he  felt  despondent  and  discouraged. And then  perchance  it  occurred  to  him  to  imitate Christ, who  at  twelve  disputed  with  the  doctors,  and at thirty  came  down  to  the  capacity  of  the  vulgar throng, and  so  at  Jesus's  word  and  in  a  humbler  and a better  spirit  he  again  let  down  the  net  and  lo! the miraculous draught  again;  the  people  crowded  him as they  crowded  Jesus,  ever  eager  for  preaching that really  is  the  word  of  God. Then came  the double revelation  of  sin  within  and  God  without, and he  cried:  "I  am  not  worthy;  depart  from  me, O  Lord,  and  yet  not  so,  O  Lord;  remain  with  me, for  without  Thee  I  can  do  nothing,  but  in  Thee  who