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 (Being the philosophy of many Soldiers.)

on the bed; I'm blind, and three parts shell.

Be careful; can't shake hands now; never shall.

Both arms have mutinied against me,-brutes.

My fingers fidget like ten idle brats.

I tried to peg out soldierly,—no use!

One dies of war like any old disease.

This bandage feels like pennies on my eyes.

I have my medals?-Discs to make eyes close.

My glorious ribbons?-Ripped from my own back

In scarlet shreds. (That's for your poetry book.)

A short life and a merry one, my brick!

We used to say we'd hate to live dead old,—

Yet now. . . I'd willingly be puffy, bald,

And patriotic. Buffers catch from boys

At least the jokes hurled at them. I suppose

Little I'd ever teach a son, but hitting,

Shooting, war, hunting, all the arts of hurting.

Well, that's what I learnt,—that, and making money.

Your fifty years ahead seem none too many?

Tell me how long I've got? God! For one year

To help myself to nothing more than air!

One Spring! Is one too good to spare, too long?

Spring wind would work its own way to my lung,

And grow me legs as quick as lilac-shoots.

My servant's lamed, but listen how he shouts!

When I'm lugged out, he'll still be good for that.

Here in this mummy-case, you know, I've thought

How well I might have swept his floors for ever.

I'd ask no nights off when the bustle's over,

Enjoying so the dirt. Who's prejudiced

Against a grimed hand when his own's quite dust,

Less live than specks that in the sun-shafts turn,

Less warm than dust that mixes with arms' tan?

I'd love to be a sweep, now, black as Town,

Yes, or a muckman. Must I be his load?