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 this event which will determine the "remembered" knowledge that happened in his teaching during enhanced consciousness states.

Castaneda provides further information of the talks he had with Don Juan before the momentous leap. After the jump and turning into pure energy, the warrior-traveler decides whether to return to the grotesque world or melts at infinity, disappearing without any trace. If he decides to stay, he should "tighten his belt" and face "his task" with sobriety and aplomb, regardless of its outcome. Because what sustains the warrior-traveler is humility and efficiency. His character has been forged in the sobriety forge, austerity and humility. The warrior-traveler live strategically and everything he does is free of fear and ambition.

Infinity warrior-travellers, cover elegantly and generously everything they receive and thus get rid of heavy loads or debts to drag. The warrior-traveler is light and fluid, leaves no tracks and goes unnoticed in a crowd. That is his trademark.

Don Juan tells Castaneda that warrior-travelers who dare to "jump to the infinite", require much internal strength and sobriety, but he points out that those who decide to stay, also need "steel balls", to face his destiny in this reality. One and the other are immeasurable challenges.

"—We will never again be together —told me quietly—. You will no longer need my help; and I am not offering it, because if you are a worthy warrior traveler, you will spit in my face for offering. Beyond certain parameters, the only warrior traveler happiness is his solitary state. I would not like you to help me either. Once I go, I will be gone. Do not think further of me because I am not going to think of you anymore. If you are a warrior traveller worth your weight, be impeccable! Take care of your world. Honor it; watch it with your life.

''He walked away from me. The moment was beyond self-pity or tears or happiness. He shook his head as if to say goodbye or as if he recognized what I felt.''

—Forget the self and you shall not fear anything, no matter the consciousness level you have —told me—...

''Then I saw how don Juan Matus, the nagual, led his fifteen fellow seers, his protégés, his delights, disappear one by one in the mist of the plateau to the north. I saw each of them turn into a luminous balloon and together ascend and float over the top of the mountain as ghost lights in the sky. They turned around the top of the mountain as don Juan said they would; their last view, which is only for their eyes; their last sight of this wonderful land. And then they vanished.''

''I knew what I had to do. I ran out of time. I started to run at full speed towards the cliff and jumped into the abyss. I felt the wind in my face for a moment, and then the most pious blackness swallowed me as a peaceful underground river..." C.C.''

THE RETURN JOURNEY

Castaneda jumped into the abyss, his physical body, before crashing at the bottom of the cliff, manages that each of the millions of luminous particles comprising him and that have conscience, lit up, and consume in the inner fire, to immediately melt into the "dark consciousness sea".

The warrior-traveler has managed the rationally impossible, has broken the agreement that binds and ties humans to our sad destiny, all those that have not been able to reach that level of consciousness and energy purity. That agreement makes us docile, stupid, lazy, soft and stubborn creatures... "civilized", predators