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MY SECRET LIFE had become habitual to me). I one night talked about virgins and of getting them .He said such things were done; that Harridans got a young lass, if well paid for it, but that they generally sold the girls half- a-dozen times over, “and”, said he, “they train the young bitches so, there is no ﬁnding them out; you may pay for one who was ﬁrst fucked by a butcher boy, and then her virginity sold to a dandy; you may pay for it my boy, and not ﬁnd out you have been done.” I pondered much over this, and the next night returned to the subject. His opinion was that an old stager like him was not to be done; but that any randy young beggar would go up the girl, and ﬂatter himself he had had a virgin, if the girl was cunning. “When you see the tight covered hole with your eye, ﬁnd it tight to your little ﬁnger, and then tight to your cock, my boy; when you have satisﬁed your eye, your ﬁnger, and your cu- cumber, and seen blood on it, you may be sure you have had one,—and not otherwise.”

Thought I, “I am going to be humbugged.” Another week, no letter, I went to her lodings, and found she had taken away everything she had with her. That night I told a little of my hopes to the Major, not telling him who the kind lady was, or where she was gone; but it made him laugh. “You are done brown my boy, done brown; that woman will never turn up again.” He joked me so, that I avoided him, and kept the subect to myself afterwards.

Again to the lodgings; the landlady could not keep them vacant any longer; I paid the rent, but she got no parquisites, I increased the allowance. Then again I went; the landlady said she did not expect to see her again. I had now set my heart on having this virgin; —302—