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 sure there was at least one good foundation for their living happily together.

Though I should have been charm'd to see him before he went, such measures were taken, by Mr. H's orders, that it was impossible; otherwise I should certainly have endeavour'd to detain him in town, and would have spar'd neither offers nor expence to have procur'd myself the satisfaction of keeping him with me, he had such powerful holds upon my inclinations as were not easily to be shaken off or replac'd; as to my heart, it was quite out of the question: glad however I was from my soul that nothing worse, and, as things turn'd out, probably nothing better could have happen'd to him.

As to Mr. H, though views of conveniency made me at first exert myself to regain his affection, I was giddy and thoughtless enough to be much easier reconcil'd to my failure than I ought to have been; but as I never had lov'd him, and his leaving me gave me a sort of liberty that I had often long'd for, I was soon comforted; and flattering myself that the stock of youth and beauty I was going into trade with could hardly fail of procuring me a maintenance, I saw