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 name before a scoffing world, sit down at his table, and partake in faith of the body and blood of Jesus.

Sabbath eve.— And now I have entered into the most solemn engagement to be the Lord's. I have confessed Christ before the world- I have renounced my wicked companions- I have solemnly promised, that denying ungodliness and every worldly lust, I will live soberly, righteously, and godly, in this present world. If I should, after taking these solemn vows and covenant engagements upon me, dishonour the cause of my Redeemer; if I should give the enemies of religion reason to say there is nothing in religion; if I should again return to my former courses, Oh how dreadfully aggravated will be my condemnation! What excuse could I render at the tribunal of a just Judge? My mouth would be stopped, and I should plead guilty before him. How then does it become me to watch and pray, lest the devices of Satan, the world, or my own remaining corruption should lead me into temptation!

Oct. 21.— This day God, in infinite mercy, has seen fit to grant me near access to his mercy seat. I have been enabled to call upon his name, and to plead with him for his spiritual Jerusalem. Oh that he would hear and accept my feeble petitions, and answer them for his own name's sake!

Feb. 25— With the light of this holy morning I desire to offer to the kind Shepherd of Israel, who never slumbers nor sleeps, a morning tribute of thanksgiving and praise. Oh that my whole soul might be drawn out in love to God; and all my faculties unite with the inhabitants of the New Jerusalem, in praising the immortal King, for what he has done, and still is doing for rebellious man! But I fall infinitely short of the honour due to his glorious name. When shall I arrive at the destined