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 shall I repine and think he deals hardly with me? Oh no! bet the severest trials and disappointments fall to my lot, guilty and weak as I am yet I think I can rejoice in the Lord, and joy is the God of my salvation.'

"In the first part of her sickness, which succeeded the birth of her babe, she had some doubts which occasionally interrupted her spiritual comfort; but they were soon removed, and her mind was filled with that peace of God which passes all understanding: When I asked her, a few days before she died, if she had any remaining doubts respecting her spiritual state, she answered with emphasis, . During the whole of her sickness, she talked in the most familiar manner, and with great delight, of death and the glory that was to follow. When Dr Burke one day told her, those were gloomy thoughts, she had better get rid of them; she replied, that, on the contrary, they were to her cheering and joyful beyond what she could express. When I attempted to persuade her that she would recover; (which I fondly hoped) it seemed to strike her like a disappointment. She would say, 'You ought rather to pray that I may depart, that I may be perfectly free from sin, and be where God is.'

Her mind was from day to day filled with the most comforting and delightful views of the character of God and Christ. She often requested me to talk to her on these interesting subjects. She told me that her thoughts were so much confused, by the distress of body she had suffered that she found it difficult steadily to pursue a train of thought on divine things, but that she continually looked to God, and passively rested on him. She often spoke of meeting her friends in heaven. 'Perhaps,' said she, 'my dear mother has gone