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50 Yet I will not think

Sweet friend, but we shall one day meet and live

In quietness and die so, fearing God.

Or if not, and these false suggestions be

A fit of the weak nature, loth to part

With what it loved so long and held so dear;

If thou art to be taken and I left

(More sinning, yet unpunish'd save in thee,)

It is the will of God, and we are clay

In the potter's hand; and at the worst are made

From absolute nothing, vessels of disgrace,

Till His most righteous purpose wrought in us,

Our purified spirits find their perfect rest.

To add to these sorrows Coleridge had, for some time, been growing negligent as a correspondent. So early as April Lamb had written, after affectionate enquiries for Hartley "the minute philosopher" and Hartley's mother,—"Coleridge, I am not trifling, nor are these matter-of-fact questions only. You are all very dear and precious to me. Do what you will, Coleridge, you may hurt and vex me by your silence but you cannot estrange my heart from you all. I cannot scatter friendships like chuck-farthings, nor let them drop from mine hand like hour-glass sand. I have but two or three people in the world to whom I am more than indifferent and I can't afford to whistle them off to the winds."

And again, three months after his return from Stowey, he wrote sorrowfully almost plaintively, remonstrating for Lloyd's sake and his own:—

"You use Lloyd very ill, never writing to him. I tell you again that his is not a mind with which you should play tricks. He deserves more tenderness from you. For myself, I must spoil a little passage of Beaumont and Fletcher's to adapt it to my feelings: