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 my only  good,  my  God  and  Saviour,  whom  I  love above all  things  and  desire  to  entertain  within  my heart  with  as  much  devotion  and  affection  as  is conceived  by  Thy  chosen  servants,  who  now  sit at Thy  table  in  celestial  bliss. And however  I may  have  been  wanting  hitherto  in  my  duty,  I now  for  ever  renounce  my  folly  and  weakness, and from  my  heart  request  that  for  the  future  my joy,  my  relief,  my  treasure,  and  rest  may  be  entirely centered  in  Thee. May I  never  desire  anything besides  Thee,  and  may  all  things  seem  contemptible and  as  nothing  without  Thee,  O  my God!

my God  and  Saviour,  it  is  with  fear  and trembling that  I  approach  Thy  banquet,  having nothing  to  confide  in  but  Thy  goodness  and mercy, being  of  myself  a  sinner,  destitute  of  all virtue. My soul  and  body  are  defiled  with  many crimes, my  thoughts  and  tongue  have  been  under no restraint. I have  frequently  resolved  to amend,  and  yet  where  do  I  remain  but  in  the midst of  sin  and  vice? How little  pains  do  I  take to recover  from  this  misery  and  return  to  Thee, to whom  I  have  repeatedly  promised  to  be  faithful! These thoughts  cause  me  to  fear  that  what Thou hast  mercifully  ordained  for  my  salvation,  I should  now  receive  to  my  judgment  and  condemnation. In this  wretched  condition  I  hasten  to Thee;  to  Thee  I  expose  all  my  wounds,  to  Thee  I