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Rh then found, was not extinguiſhed in my breaſt; and the pangs I felt myself, from the ſense of their uneaſiness, abundantly convinced me, of what they muſt feel. But to return to them was impoſſible: I could not, I dared not: I wiſhed to do so, but my very wiſhes affrightened me. And beſides Mr G**, whom I paſſionately loved, rejected the thought with the greateſt diſdain; and told me, he ſhould conſtrue my entertainment of it, as a disguſt to, and disapprobation of him. This was sufficient to expel it entirely. He grew every day more & more aſſiduous: but every day he advanced in freedoms, which I did not much disapprove. At length he began to talk in a ſtrain, I was obliged to diſlike, and to expreſs my diflike of.— For, God knows, I had no thoughts but of the moſt virtuous ſort: and therefore when he began to declaim concerning the uſeleſſneſs of prieſts, the union of hearts, the freedom of love, and the like; I boldly told him, that as he had engaged to make me his wife, and as I had taken ſuch a ſtep in proof of my affection, I expected, that he would ſoon complete his promiſe, or I muſt be obliged, terrible as it was, to return to my father.— What followed you ſhall hear.