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Rh did not surrender his agnostic position, but he decided that it was at least an even chance that there might be a God. Further than that he did not go. A fifty-per-cent. chance that there is a God Almighty is very far removed from the confident certainty of “I know that my Redeemer liveth.” But a fifty-per-cent. chance God fully believed in is worth more as a factor in life than a forty-per-cent. faith in the whole Christian creed.

Mr. Rhodes had no sooner ciphered out his fifty-per-cent. chance than he was confronted with the reflection, “If there be a God, of which there is an even chance, what does He want me to do, if so be that He cares anything about what I do?” For so the train of thought went on. “If there be a God, and if He do care, then the most important thing in the world for me is to find out what He wants me to do, and then go and do it.” But how was he to find it out? It is a problem which