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 to approach the altar again to morrow. Grant, O Lord, that I may receive the Sacrament with such resolutions of a better life as may by thy grace be effectual, for the sake of Jesus Christ. Amen.

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April 21. I read the whole Gospel of St. John. Then sat up till the 22d.

My Purpose is from this time /To reject or expel sensual images, and idle thoughts.

To provide some useful amusement for leisure time.

To avoid Idleness.

To rise early.

To study a proper portion of every day.

To Worship God diligently.

To read the Scriptures.

To let no week pass without reading some part.

To write down my observations.

I will renew my resolutions made at Tetty's death.

I perceive an insensibility and heaviness upon me. I am less than commonly oppressed with the sense of sin, and less affected with the shame of Idleness. Yet I will not despair. I will pray to God for resolution, and will endeavour to strengthen my faith in Christ by commemorating his death.

I prayed for Tett.

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Ap. 22, EASTER DAY.

Having before I went to bed composed the foregoing meditation and the following prayer, I tried to compose myself but slept unquietly. I rose, took tea, and prayed for resolution and perseverance. Thought on Tetty, dear poor Tetty, with my eyes full.

I went to church, came in at the first of the Psalms x, and endeavoured to attend the service which I went through without perturbation. After sermon I recommended Tetty in a prayer by herself, and my Father, Mother, Brother, and Bathurst 2, in

1 All his resolutions often per- had died of fever in the Havannah, haps generally failed to get him to ' of whom he hardly ever spoke with- church in time. out tears in his eyes,' see Life, i.

2 For his friend Dr. Bathurst, who 190, 242, and Letters, i. 32. Accord-

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