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Rh that every one of his colleagues and successors to the present moment, have proved equally actuable, though some more, some less, Mr. Grey having proved the strongest, though not full proof : and pretending in their efforts to cajole me, that my having, (though not acquainted with him, and notwithstanding his refusing to attend to me in 1796,) entertained a sort of friendly opinion for him, was the sole means of preserving his life when first Lord of the Admiralty. They say, that having read in my jumbled narratives the facts of traitor efforts to disorganize the navy, and even after the meeting, not only left me to linger here under their incessant murdering efforts, but accepted the office of first Lord of the Admiralty ; the die was cast against him in their system of event- working, and he was to be put out, a term they use for their murdering any one. In truth, they did frequently say to me, when he took upon him the office, ‘We have