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201 “We have to find our fun in the building and in our confidence that we do really build.”

“So long as our confidence lasts there is no great hardship,” said Sir Richmond.

“So long as our confidence lasts,” she repeated after him.

“Ah!” cried Sir Richmond. “There it is! So long as our confidence lasts! So long as one keeps one’s mind steady. That is what I came away with Dr. Martineau to discuss. I went to him for advice. I haven’t known him for more than a month. It’s amusing to find myself preaching forth to you. It was just faith I had lost. Suddenly I had lost my power of work. My confidence in the rightness of what I was doing evaporated. My will failed me. I don’t know if you will understand what that means. It wasn’t that my reason didn’t assure me just as certainly as ever that what I was trying to do was the right thing to try to do. But somehow that seemed a cold and personally unimportant proposition. The life had gone out of it....”

He paused as if arrested by a momentary doubt.

“I don’t know why I tell you these things,” he said.

“You tell them me,” she said.

“It’s a little like a patient in a hydropath retailing his ailments.”

“No. No. Go on.”

“I began to think now that what took the go