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 called "a feeling of fundamental necessity" In his efforts which supplied him with a force lacking to Lan Blake, who had an allowance from home and wanted to work only for extra money. Now in his twenty-second year Dave Herrick, tall but rather light for his height, was a developed man, very strong and enduring and of the constitution described as hard physically, which had been formed by much hard, muscular work and by the almost complete absence of self-indulgences. He had clear, good features, nearly regular, with slight, tense lines of strain about his mouth; he had the habit of being under strain and it showed sometimes in his eyes, which were grayish blue and direct and, usually, positive. For that positiveness some people, men mostly, did not like his eyes; they did not understand that it came from his being obliged, when a little boy, to assert and stubbornly stand by the practical against the fanatically spiritual, not only for the sake of himself but of his brothers and sisters and of his mother and father themselves. But almost every one liked his eyes when he smiled for his smile banished those lines of strain and took from any overpositiveness; his was a pleasant, relaxing smile showing the even, perfect teeth of a boy brought up on hard, sparse fare.

Two people—and Lan was one of them—knew him in moods which neither were positively practical nor relaxed, they were sudden, unsummoned times of violent self-reproach and penitence. For what, Lan could not guess at first; then he began to realize the cumulative effect of the unceasing drumming into a thoughtful boy, throughout his childhood and adole-