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 CHAPTER XIV MINA HARKER'S JOURNAL

23 September.—Jonathan is better after a bad night. I am so glad that he has plenty of work to do, for that keeps his mind off the terrible things; and oh, I am rejoiced that he is not now weighed down with the responsibility of his new position. I knew he would be true to himself, and now how proud I am to see my Jonathan rising to the height of his advancement and keeping pace in all ways with the duties that come upon him. He will be away all day till late, for he said he could not lunch at home. My household work is done, so I shall take his foreign journal, and lock myself up in my room and read it

24 September.—I hadn't the heart to write last night: that terrible record of Jonathan's upset me so. Poor dear! How he must have suffered, whether it be true or only imagination. I wonder if there is any truth in it at all. Did he get his brain fever, and then write all those terrible things, or had he some cause for it all? I suppose I shall ever know, for I dare not open the subject to him And yet that man we saw yesterday! He seemed quite certain of him Poor fellow! I suppose it was the funeral upset him and sent his mind back on some train of thought He believes it all himself. I remember how on our wedding-day he said: "Unless some solemn duty come upon me to go back to the bitter hours, asleep or awake, mad or sane." There seems to be through it all some thread of continuity That fearful Count was coming to London If it should be, and he came to London, with his teeming millions There may be solemn duty; and if it come we must not shrink from it I shall be prepared. I shall get my typewriter this very hour and begin