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 clergy. Mr. Harris, to whom I spoke, but as to all, made no difficulty, and something was done.

At this time, about three years, I suppose, ago, I was thoroughly unhappy in the meetings. I felt the Spirit utterly quenched, and if I went to the meetings happy, returned miserable. It was only at the last I was at I found it in my heart to pray. I had communication on the subject with Mr. Harris, who remonstrated with me. I returned abroad. While abroad, I cannot here give the date, Mr. Newton wrote to me that I was an apostle. This did not, I confess, inspire me with confidence. About three or four months before my return to England I had a correspondence with Mr. Harris, one of whose letters, from the great change in its tone, convinced me that every barrier was gone at Plymouth : for he had long sought to keep himself free from the influence that ruled most things there. From that moment I felt that conflict and trial awaited me, though I knew not what: but I was satisfied before God that nothing that could be ventured on would be spared. I passed through much more conflict of soul then than after I came to England. Nor was I mistaken in my judgment.

Mr. Harris invited me, however, to come to Plymouth.