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236 thrown by fate, I tried with all my might to adapt myself to that life; and in this I succeeded so far that I may say, without boasting, that I attained to a more than average proficiency in all the accomplishments and pastimes of the Colymbians. Externally I was as one of themselves, but internally I felt myself to be at heart a terrestrial, and, though I accommodated myself tolerably to the manners and customs of my adopted countrymen, I secretly rebelled against their strange morality and startling deviations from what my education had taught me to consider right principles. I was irritated by their arrogant conceit, and by the supercilious contempt with which they treated my mildly-expressed preference for some of the usages of my native country. I disliked being spoken to as if I were a being of inferior race to themselves, when I knew that almost all their literature was borrowed from us, and that when their science excelled ours, it was only because the peculiarity of their conditions of life had forced them to develop special branches to the degree required by their necessities. The clue that led to these developments had been furnished to them by our philosophers and men of science, without which they might never have attained their actual perfection. Above all, I sadly missed the beautiful and refreshing services of our venerated Church, where our reiterated confession of being miserable sinners guards us against that intolerable pride and self-sufficiency that is such a blemish in the Colymbian character. The longing for home and for the terrestrial life, which I felt to be more suited for my nature than this aquatic existence, imparted an irritability and dogmatism to my conversation, and I frequently defended with, more heat than was necessary the customs of our country,