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 Primevally alive, and have the sun Shine into me; for on a day like this, When chaff-parts of a man's adversities Are blown by quick spring breezes out of him— When even a flicker of wind that wakes no more Than a tuft of grass, or a few young yellow leaves, Comes like the falling of a prophet's breath On altar-flames rekindled of crushed embers,— Then do I feel, now do I feel, within me No dreariness, no grief, no discontent, No twinge of human envy. But I beg That you forego credentials of the past For these illuminations of the present, Or better still, to give the shadow justice, You let me tell you something: I have yearned In many another season for these days, And having them with God's own pageantry To make me glad for them,—yes, I have cursed The sunlight and the breezes and the leaves To think of men on stretchers or on beds, Or on foul floors, things without shapes or names, Made human with paralysis and rags; Or some poor devil on a battle-field, Left undiscovered and without the strength To drag a maggot from his clotted mouth; Or women working where a man would fall Flat-breasted miracles of cheerfulness Made neuter by the work that no man counts Until it waits undone; children thrown out To feed their veins and souls on offal. . . Yes, I have had half a mind to blow my brains out Sometimes; and I have gone from door to door, Ragged myself, trying to do something— Crazy, I hope.—But what has this to do With Spring? Because one half of humankind