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 have shot them. I never have seen any white men except those who came here. I want Fairchild and Riddle, and anyone else willing to come out. I want to see my people at Yainax. I have thrown away my country, and unless I go I never expect to see my people again; and then I want to go to town, and then I will go away and never expect to return. I want to see what they have to say. My mmd is made up, and I have little else to say. They have got my heart now, and they must look after it and do right. I am nearly well and have a good heart now. I expect Mr. Meacham is very sick and couldn't come. I am nearl}^ well, but am afraid on account of the soldiers on the road. There are so many soldiers around. There are soldiers on Lost river, on Clear lake, and Bernard's soldiers. Wouldn't they be afraid if they were in the same situation ? I want to see their head men who never have been here. I have heard of so many soldiers coming I was afraid. When they visited me they laid down and slept and were not pestered. I had a bad heart yesterday morning when Mr Steele left here, to think that he would not come back or believe me. If I knew the new country I would go out when he came in. I want to visit my people, then the new country, and want the peace commission to go with me and show it to me. I wish to live like the white men. Let everything be wiped out, washed out, and let there be no more blood. I have got a bad heart about these warriors. I have got but a few men, and don't see how I can give them up. Will they give up their people who murdered my people while they were asleep ? I never asked for the people w^ho murdered my people. I only talked that way. I can see how I could give up my horse to be hanged, but I cannot see how I could give up my men to be hanged. I could give up my horse to be hanged and wouldn't cry about it; but if I gave up my men I would have to cry about it. I want them all to have good hearts now. I