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Rh when yet he cannot will, think, and thence do anything but from God? Why did God permit this?” I replied, “Man was so created, that whatever he wills, thinks, and does, appears to him as in himself, and thereby from himself: without this appearance a man would not be a man; for he would be incapable of receiving, retaining, and as it were appropriating to himself anything of good and truth, or of love and wisdom: whence it follows, that without such appearance, as a living appearance, a man would not have conjunction with God, and consequently neither would he have eternal life. But if from this appearance he induces in himself a belief that he wills, thinks, and thence does good from himself, and not from the Lord, although in all appearance as from himself, he turns good into evil with himself, and thereby makes in himself the origin of evil. This was the sin of Adam. But I will explain this matter somewhat more clearly. The Lord looks at every man in the forepart of his head, and this inspection passes into the hinder part of his head. Beneath the forepart is the cerebrum, and beneath the hinder part is the cerebellum; the latter was designed for love and the goods thereof, and the former for wisdom and the truths thereof; wherefore he that looks with the face to the Lord receives from him wisdom, and by wisdom love; but he that looks backward from the Lord receives love and not wisdom; and love without wisdom, is love from man and not from the Lord; and this love, since it conjoins itself with falses, does not acknowledge God, but acknowledges itself for God, and confirms this tacitly by the faculty of understanding and growing wise implanted in it from creation as from itself; wherefore this love is the origin of evil. That this is the case, will admit of ocular demonstration. I will call hither some wicked spirit who turns himself from God, and will speak to him from behind, or into the hinder part of the head, and you will see that the things which are said are turned into their contraries.” I called such a spirit and he presented himself, and I spoke to him from behind and said, “Do you know anything about hell, damnation, and torment in hell?” And presently, when he was turned to me, I asked him what he heard? He said, “I heard, ‘Do you know anything concerning heaven, salvation, and happiness in heaven?’” and afterwards when the latter words were said to him from behind, he said that he heard the former. It was next said to him from behind, “Do you know that those who are in hell are insane from falses?” and when I asked him concerning these words what he heard, he said, “I heard, ‘Do you know that those who are in heaven are wise from truths?’” and when the latter words were spoken to him from behind, he said that he heard, “Do you know that those who are in hell, are insane from falses?” and so in other instances: from which it evidently appears, that when the mind turns itself from the Lord, it turns 351