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RV 338 (BUDDENBROOKS) and the Kistenmakers and the Möllendorpfs, because they think he is common&mdash;Oh, Grünlich was much more refined, though he was certainly black within, as Herr Stengel would have said.&mdash;Oh, Ida, my head! do wet the compress again,”

“But it must be so, in the end,” she went on again, drawing a long breath as the compress went on; “for the main point is and remains that I must get married again, and not stick about here any longer as a divorced woman. Ah, Ida, I think so much about the past these days: about the time when Grünlich first appeared, and the scenes he made me&mdash;scandalous, Ida!&mdash;and then about Travemünde and the Schwarzkopfs&mdash;” She spoke slowly, and her eyes rested for a while dreamily on a darn in Erica’s stocking. “And then the betrothal, and Eimsbüttel, and our house. It was quite elegant, Ida. When I think of my morning-gowns&mdash;It would not be like that with Permaneder; one gets more modest as life goes on&mdash;And Dr. Klaasen and the baby, and Banker Kesselmeyer&mdash;and then the end, it was frightful; you can’t imagine how frightful it was. And when you have had such dreadful experiences in life&mdash;But Permaneder would never go in for anything filthy like that. That is the last thing in the world I should expect of him, and we can rely on him too in a business way, for I really think he makes a good deal with Noppe at the Niederpaur brewery. And when I am his wife, you'll see, Ida, I will take care that he has ambition and gets ahead and makes an effort and is a credit to me and all of us. That, at least, he takes upon himself when he marries a Buddenbrook!”

She folded her hands under her head and looked at the ceiling. “Yes, ten years ago and more, I married Grünlich. Ten years! And here I am at the same place again, saying yes to somebody else. You know, Ida, life is very, very serious. Only the difference is that then it was a great affair, and they all pressed me and tormented me, whereas now they are all perfectly quiet and take it for granted that I am go-

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