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Ah, my Highest Good! how often have I lost Thee for nought, and have deserved to lose Thee for ever! But it comforts me to think of that which the Psalmist says, " Let the heart of them rejoice that seek the Lord." (Ps. cv. 3.) I ought not, therefore, to despair of recovering Thee, my God, if I seek Thee with the heart. Yes, my Saviour, I now yearn after Thy grace more than for any other good. I am content to be deprived of all things, even of life, rather than to be deprived of Thy love. I love Thee, my Creator, above all things; and because I love Thee, I repent of having offended Thee. My God, do Thou quickly pardon me who am lost and despairing; and grant that I may find Thee, for I desire to never lose Thee again. If Thou receivest me again to Thy friendship, I desire to lose all things, and to give up myself to Thy love alone; and this I hope for, from Thy compassion. Eternal Father, hear me, for the love of Jesus Christ. Pardon me, and give me grace never to separate myself from Thee again; for if I willingly lose Thee again, I ought to tremble justly, lest Thou abandon me. O Jesus! O peace-maker of sinners! grant me to have peace with God, and then hold me fast under Thy mantle, so that I may never again lose Thee.