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 angel of the Lord " stand upon the sea, and sware by Him that liveth for ever .... that there should be time no longer." (Rev. x. 5, 6.) Oh, what cruel daggers will be all these graces which have been received in the heart of the poor condemned one, who will then see that the time for repairing his eternal ruin is past. The soul will say then, weeping with its other desperate companions, " The harvest is past, the summer is ended, and we are not saved." (Jer. viii. 20.) He will cry, " Oh! if the labours which I have borne for my condemnation I had spent for God, I should have become a great saint; and now, what remains for me but remorse and pains, which will torment me for ever?" Ah, this thought will torment the condemned more than the fire and the other torments of hell I might have been for ever happy, and now I must be for ever miserable.

Oh, my Jesus, and how is it that Thou hast been able to bear with me so long? I have so often turned away from Thee, and Thou hast not ceased to come nigh me. I have often offended Thee, and Thou hast turned again and pardoned me. Alas! give me a portion of the grief which Thou didst feel in the Garden of Gethsemane for my sins, which then made Thee to sweat blood. I repent, my dear Redeemer, of having so evilly repaid Thy love. O my cursed pleasures, I detest and loathe you; ye made me forfeit the grace of my Lord. My beloved Jesus, now I love Thee above all things, and I renounce all unlawful gratifications \ I purpose rather to die a thousand deaths than to offend Thee more. Ah, by that affection with which Thou hast loved me on the Cross, and hast offered Thy Divine life for me, give me light and strength to resist temptations, and to have recourse to Thy aid when I am tempted. O Lord, grant me holy perseverance, and the grace never to separate myself again from Thy holy love.

The third remorse of the condemned will be to see the great good which they have lost. S. Chrysostom says " they will be