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 the gratitude we have shewn him for all his loving kindnesses to us in the wilderness! Is this for his feeding, clothing, and preserving in despight of enemies! Is this all we have rendered to him—to run as so many sheep out of a fold, every one to what he could win at, without ever looking and considering what was their duty to do in such a time for Christ and his cause! O! wrath is gone out against us! Plague upon plague is the portion for professors of this generation! O Lord, I fear I, and many others, have been building upon a sandy foundation; suffering more out of an expectation of a temporal delivery, than out of love to Christ and his cause! the event of the sufferings of Scotland speaks out the truth of this,—the sight whereof has made my heart to tremble. Therefore, O Lord, I desire that thou wouldest uncover the deceit of my heart in this, with a true sense of it upon my spirit, that I may mourn in secret places for it. O! give me thy assisting grace and helping hand in this reeling, fainting, and falling time, that I may be helped, in singleness and uprightness of heart, and in sincerity without hypocrisy or guile, to lay that foundation stone right, which is Jesus Christ. O come and give thy consent to this covenant and bargain this day: let thy presence shew thy satisfaction in it, that I may win to the faith—that not only I have covenanted with thee, but that thou hast condescended in thy