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 knowing where they were. I began to search the bible, but often before this I had trials, but I would not hearken, I had practically said unto God, depart from me I desire not the knowledge of thy ways I had all my days set at naught his councils and words. I often slighted till an advanced age, but now I experienced personal deliverance, yet I had all these number of years been totally blind to the things that belonged to my peace. I had fears and put up prayers before God in this situation, I had incurred as I thought the denunciation, I will pour out my fury upon the heathen and upon the families that call not on my name.

My mind was imagining, but agitated. I imagined many things; it seemed to me that I saw a bright light in a dark night, when contemplating on my bed which I could not account for, but I thought I heard a voice calling to me again I thought I saw another light of the same kind, all which I considered as ominous of my own dissolution. I was in distress that sleep departed from my eyes and I literally watered my pillow with tears that I prayed eagerly that God would have mercy on me, that he would relieve me and open the eyes of my understanding and enable me to call on him as I ought. It bought passage of scripture to my mind, those particular Christ's lamentations over Jerusalem struck me very forcibly to think that often the Lord had